Reading Twitter while waiting for Lisa Murkowski to say on CNN how she’ll vote on Trump impeachment trial witnesses. See familiar 60’s poster from San Francisco and New York Times obituary for its creator, Wes Wilson. See latest New York Times scoop on drama queen John Bolton’s book, another bombshell hours before crucial Senate vote. Start tripping.

I remembered a small version of the 1966-1967 poster pasted — I think to cover a stain — on the back of an old Starr’s Guide to the John Muir Trail, published in 1964 and now resting on my bookshelf here in my Placitas office.

The New York Times today:

Wes Wilson, Psychedelic Poster Pioneer, Dies at 82

His work announced concerts by the Grateful Dead, Jefferson Airplane and more — to those who could read them.

I say 1966-1967 because the Jefferson Airplane, Grateful Dead, Quicksilver Messenger Service concert at the Fillmore Auditorium in San Francisco was billed as a “New Year Bash.”

I did not attend. I would have been living overseas at the time, reading a few months later about a cataclysm in New Mexico, where I had lived even earlier —  Tijerina and the Tierra Amarilla courthouse raid, in the thin-paper international edition of Time —  but I lived in Marin County, across the Bay from San Francisco, before an after. The only Fillmore concert I remember attending was later in the summer or fall of 1967, after I returned to the U.S. It was Cream with Eric Clapton, Jack Bruce and Ginger Baker. I’m not sure who else was on the bill. And the truth was, those days, that one or more of the locals often played in a park somewhere for free.

At age 70 now, I still have to look twice at the dates on the Fillmore “New Year Bash” poster. Maybe I wouldn’t have then. I smoked pot whenever I could get it — $10 a lid was a fortune’s worth in my canned-soup, college-days budget. (Tomato  soup was 11-cents a can at the Berkeley food coop). But the one and only time I dropped acid was on March 31, 1968, after seeing LBJ announce on a friend’s black-and-white TV that he would not seek re-election. This led to a hitch-hiking trip from Marin to “the city” and back to Mt. Tamalpais and, then, a walk, much of the way, to Bolinas. I still believe the LSD was mixed with speed. The acid hit me as we entered this tunnel above Sausalito on Highway 101, years later painted with rainbow colors and then renamed for Robin Williams after his death in 2014. My 1967 LSD-trip guide was an easy-going Canadian art student named Jim.

I’m sure I freaked out the guy driving the car by announcing from the back seat, as we entered the tunnel, “The funny thing is that we’re driving this car.” They are the last words I remembering saying for the next  24 hours.

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My head has been aching recently with a contemporary TV commercial for ocean cruises featuring Jefferson Airplane lyrics, “Remember what the doormouse said: Feed your head, feed your head.” Still trippy but mostly dippy, it seems to me now.

I left the Starr’s Guide with a friend when I moved oversees during high school. She returned it many years later, out of the blue. I don’t know whether she or I pasted the Wes Wilson Fillmore handbill on the back. Thank you anyway, Dolores, for keeping me in the loop.

And rest in peace, Wes Wilson. I’ve always enjoyed your work, even if I had to look twice.

I remain a fan of Eric Clapton — shaken by his racist comments in 1976 but accepting his later apologies. https://www.thedailybeast.com/eric-clapton-apologizes-for-racist-past-i-sabotaged-everything.

I never was much of a fan of the Dead, but I’ve always admired this lyric from Truckin’.

“Lately, it occurs to me what a long, strange trip it’s been.”

Then, again, these are just sparks flying from my fingertips.

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I’ll never be fully comfortable calling these wee Placitas souls — this one photobombing my bluebird session this morning — Texas antelope squirrels.

My trusty “Field Guide to the Sandia Mountains (edited by Julyan and Stuever) notes, “The Rio Grande serves as a barrier between the Texas antelope occurring east of the river and the white-tailed and Harris’ antelope squirrels occurring west.” But I guess I’m still happy to be an eastsider. And this is certainly among the more benign examples of possible New Mexico-Texas tensions.

In case you’re wondering, as I always do, Sandia-area chipmunks are said by field guide mammal author Paul J. Polechla, Jr. to be “the only members of the squirrel family with eye stripes.”

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Colorado chipmunk. nps.gov photo

I looked up the binomial credit for the Texas antelope squirrel, or ammospermophilus interpres, suspicious to see if the namer was perchance a Texan. No, Wikipedia says, “Clinton Hart Merriam (December 5, 1855 – March 19, 1942) was an American zoologist, mammalogist, ornithologist, entomologist, ethnographer, and naturalist,” born in New York City and leaving this life in Berkeley, California.

At this point, I decided to bag my regional prejudice tendencies because I also read that Merriam was appointed to be a naturalist on the Hayden Geological Survey of 1872 at age 16. I usually have found myself fascinated with anything or anyone affiliated with the Hayden survey.

And I will say for the record that I always will welcome Texas antelope squirrels.

Here are those more broadly referenced Western bluebirds, by the way:

Dentistry has come a long way and even a root canal is no sweat, but it’s still nice to have a sympathetic soul waiting for you at home.

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Though we both know I warrant only short-term care. I’m not saying he’s fickle, but having made sure I am OK, or bored with my self-pity, Cowboy’s attentions today turned to sunshine and impeachment.

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Maybe he likes Adam Schiff. I can’t imagine that it’s Pat Cipollone. But the truth is we’re watching with the sound off. I watched almost all of the House hearings and I  can’t see how they’re ever going to get 67 votes to convict in the Senate. Fifty-one to dismiss seems more likely.

I won’t live long enough to produce meaningful tree ring data, so I’m not spending much time making a milestone out of 2020. I am trying to see things as seamlessly as I can.

The sun rose on Redondo this morning as it usually does while there is still so much work to be done in Washington. My knees started aching last year, right at age 70, but I still walk in the hills. My good fortune is: My routine still flows, knots and all.

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The xmas cactus by Cowboy’s food bowl has withered a bit, but morning coffee and breakfast are still good.

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I did not take pictures of Cabezon this morning because it looked like smog had settled near its base. It was clearer yesterday, as Cowboy saw, and the storm forecasted for tomorrow probably will push today’s dirt away.

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Coyotes and bobcats came with the territory and remain.

The not-so wild horses have nice winter coats and there appear to be plenty of people to feed them.

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There were some grand sunsets at the end of 2019, but I can tell you from living just north of the Sandias for 30 years — this plus my previous Placitas place — don’t bother keeping count: There is some kind of rock and roll here every night. There is a new house in my Sandia view and the BLM may be thinking of trading off the 197 acres between us. Even so, I have walked with four dogs on this little chunk of public land at least 10,000 times and hope like other other quiet, resident walkers here that it remains home-free.

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Despite fears of development, I got past sunset melancholy years ago.

Now I await moonrises and dawns only a sleep away.

I reach the five years since treatment mark for my second cancer on March 25, but it seems the landscape of cancer is changing. I still hope for moonshots for kids, but for adults I am less often hearing words like cure. Treatments have improved and “living with cancer” seems to be edging out “battling cancer” in everyday terms. But I take “living with cancer” to also mean that cancer is a chronic disease.

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What I am most sure of at the brink of 2020 is that I have been lucky for 70 years. Every day I see Cowboy and mountains, blue sky and birds, I know I am still.

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I woke with only a sore knee and realized as I sorted dreams from feet on the ground that I started too many of the past 1800 mornings thinking about the next.

IMG_0580Cancer can do that to you, if you are lucky enough to live and not hurt too bad. I have had it twice but, while fortunate, I am a slow learner. A ticker tape of my status through both cancers would read, at least through this sunny day, “No evidence of … No evidence of … ”

As I drank coffee and watched for winter birds,  I grasped the malignancy of my thoughts. I have been here before but the awareness was clearer today: My thoughts, like mutating cells, too often misdirected to the five-year cancer “cure” mark instead of being grateful for the day at hand. IMG_0214

I winced when I opened the local newspaper obituaries on my laptop, a regular Sunday morning exercise. After 40 years as a newspaper reporter and editor in an area where I delivered newspapers as a boy, and now 70 myself, too many names are familiar.

I felt sinful: Alive but preoccupied with death.

I knew it too as I took photos of birds through the window glass. The morning cold should not keep me inside.

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I am drinking coffee in my kitchen and see out the window the first mountain bluebird of the season.

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It’s morning, but for some reason I think of the Nick Adams dinner scene as night fell after a day of hiking in “Big Two-Hearted River.” Nick packed some heavy stuff to his fishing spot, but neither a Kuerig nor an Instapot. And he did not fish until the next morning. IMG_8507

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My brother, Pat, is the only person I know who shares my affection for the Nick Adams’s special of canned spaghetti mixed with canned pork and beans.

Morning, coffee, bluebirds and Big Two-Hearted River? It’s all crystal clear to me now.

I’m a day early on the fall equinox but waking this 50-degree morning and seeing after the sun rose a couple of blossoms on my un-irrigated autumn sage, I decided to start celebrating.

The pictures aren’t perfect, more fall is coming — cottonwoods, aspen and migrating birds — and I’m sure there is plenty to see in your neighborhood. (Just wait until David Roybal weighs in from Cundiyo). But in my backyard, even the snake weed is glowing, helped by the softer light.

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Sunflowers, purple asters and Perky Sues (I think) bloom by the roadsides.

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Blackfoot daisies flower again after a later summer rain. Prickly pears ripen.  Blue berries dangle from green juniper boughs, beckoning coyotes, birds and blue heelers.

Things in general seem to move more slowly.

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Rain walks around Cabezon.

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Contrasts seem sharper.

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I see signals in the sky.

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Seventieth birthday preserves arrive from sister Hope in Montana.

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A young coyote tries to stay dry in State Fair weather.

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A duck shows up while open season on lizards continues.

And my partner for all seasons reminds me it’s time to get out.

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